January 16, 2008 at 4:39 pm (adoption, foster, homestudy) (, , )

I had to go into work all day today, usually I just work from my home, some things, however, require an “in-person” worker. You’d think the mounds of tedious paperwork would have been enough to keep my mind off the future, and they may have been! People, literally dozens of them, kept coming to me to congratulate me… I had to keep explaining that we wouldn’t know anything until the 31st but people in general have already written us off as passing in their minds. I don’t want to be a downer, but I also need to protect myself a little bit, I can’t let this become too positive in my mind because failure would break me. It’s probably way too late for that, but I just have to be cautious anyway, if you’re reading this blog with any interest, you likely know what I mean. It’s just too easy to hope, and too crushing to fail. So for now, I’ll be the party pooper and continue to let people know that we will not be counting our chickens until they hatch… or at least until the 31st.


1 Comment

  1. Pann said,

    I cannot imagine a scenario in which you and your husband wouldn’t be accepted as adoptive parents, but I know just how you must feel about not wanting to get your hopes up too much. You have already had so many times where you’ve had to face disappointment, and this would be just too much to bear if you assumed … and were wrong.

    Somehow you have to make these two weeks pass swiftly by! If they have any heart at all, they’ll hurry up and get you your approval!

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